| Oct. 23rd, 2009 @ 12:39 pm morning off and i have the blashs... |
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The Bats in the Belltower:  thoughtful
My inside Rhapsody: A23
I AM NOT SURE WHAT I AM TO EAT
my doctor appointment was moved a week out'
bummer
i had quaker instant oatmeal high fiber with cinnamon... and i have heartburn agian
coffee did not come out at all
one of those moments and mornings
pulled on mr.j sweat shirt, the don't want to eat anything after dinner pink pajama pants, and ski wigwam socks.
then...
slid on mr.j's fishing boots and walked over to the neighbors to grab Wumpscut from their back yard. Seems that he has decided to take out his adolescence runaway issues on me. I have no idea how he is escaping. Mr.J raised the lowest part of the fence under the tree at least four more feet, so it is 14 feet tall.
Yet Wump is out every morning this week.
I am thinking of an electric fence.
I can not handle the Knott's Berry Farm- Thunder Mountain-looking wood across my English garden Gate. I thought of having a huge spider web made of wrought iron, but it would cost more than the electric fence. WHICH IS $200
So far I am close to $200 already to have the two cats outside. This is so far out of my budget.
i have no idea how much sleep i am suppose to be needing.
i am tired all the time
i ONLY have a second wind near midnight'
it has been hard to go to bed
i have not slept well in weeks
my dreams have been viscous
people i love dying
sex with people i do not care for, while crying for Mr.J
being beaten
running, lots of running
i am not sure what is happening to my sleep
i am awake just after three hours of sleep, wide awake, but exhausted, and so i realize i must pee
and then between 0400-0730 i can't sleep only to be too tired to wake to make breakfast, and then i want to sleep until noon.
this has been most of the last month
i decided that i would volunteer two days a week to make myself get up and try and reset my Arcadian rhythm.
i had my last interview with my employer for my old job back at the grocery store in Ballard. they are going to be done with the tear down and rebuild by the middle of December. It was a harder interview than i wanted to have based on my restricted schedule.
i may have to step back down and take a position under mine to get in... i guess that is what is to happen if that is what is to happen.
pay is the same, basically, i will make $5 less a day...
that is not a lot to be the boss, LET ME TELL YOU!
it might be better for the end of the pregnancy but i worry about the after part, where i need to make sure that my hours are compatible to Mr.J's to cover child care.
that part might be much harder than i had imagined.
God will open the right door at the right time, just as he moved me to the store i am at now, and not the store i wanted to be moved too with my crew. as it ended up, that store closed this month, and that would have meant that i would have been in limbo for several months... limbo and i are not friends.
so i can see now that i was spared, even though i did not get what i thought to be best at the time. i was wrong, He was full of grace.
i have some work to do to find out all the time periods of the time off and my rights for labor, and family leave. i have a no idea who to ask, as the office seems to know nothing!
i think that i will see if it is federal.
i have to clean in my house today
i walked in poop and did not realize it, yesterday before my interview and walked in my house, all the rooms before I realized that it was on my shoe! darn Wump. I was outside, getting him back into the yard, just like today...
my room had a closet explode.
it is date night tonight and i have not picked where we are going too, nor have i booked our two weekender coming up.
bad kate
nothing seems to sound fun
i really hate that... i need some inspiration
trash truck is here, it must be late near one. |
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